Well all this hype is making me feel... well... Not excitement. Quite the opposite, really.
Why, you ask? Well.. Ya know how every single school year, you tell your friends "Oh! I'm going to miss you so much! We have GOT to hang out this summer!" And it never happens. Never. Well school is really my only time to see my friends and do anything to get out of the house. School is the only time I really get to socialize outside of church. I'm hoping this summer is going to be different. I'm going to try to get out there and make plans but I still can't really feel the excitement about it. It's rather pointless for someone who is as socially awkward as I am to feel anything but dread for a time that is all about friends now.
Do you know how summer was even started? It was a time for the children to help out on the farm. Because it was harvest season. School wasn't mandatory. There weren't "sick days" or "mental health days". No "winter break", "spring break" or "thanksgiving break"s. It was just you come or stay home. So most students would stay home for the summer to help their families prepare for the coming "cold season". Well that concludes my ranting for the night, it's late and I have another day of school tomorrow. After tomorrow, 19 days of school left, according the Facebook statuses.
Ugh, I feel you. I always hated those empty offerings of hanging out in the summer. Nobody ever went through in asking me to hang out, and when I asked, they were always on vacation or busy. Got tired of trying. Instead I'd just hunker down and do non-social things all day... reading, videogames, art, so on. Got boring after a while though. :/
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